DerpOctober 2014


October 2014


Golden Hour Ride by mastermayhem

I dont know how to do this. Havent sold a horse before. At least not without it being a “you leased this horse amd did amazing on it so lets talk options” situation. Its too weird to think about just selling a horse to someone i dont know.

infinite-h8rses said: Love your blog!!! :))

Thanks :)

"Hey so what should we sell sunshine for?"

heavy sigh

There’s a difference between knowing you’ve been over-horsed, and giving up. I just need to remind myself of that. Have to convince myself that’s true.

I could keep trying with her, I know I could, but after riding her I felt a dislike for riding I’d never felt before. I’ve only ridden once since and even on a dead broke horse cantering still made me feel uneasy.

As sad as the prospect of losing a horse I’ve devoted so much energy and money and work and love towards is, to me it’d be worse to lose my passion for riding as a whole. I’d rather ride at a low level for the rest of my life than lose interest in riding trying to push my limits too far too fast. All I know is I have to do this. I love that horse and she’s going to make someone incredibly lucky. I can’t keep putting money into a horse I just can’t ride.

you shouldn’t have to
break yourself
and move your pieces.
if he was designed for you
he would fit.
- 'force' by Della Hicks-Wilson (via dellahickswilson)

I think I pretty well figured out what happened with Sunshine. She’s fine if she’s ridden the way she likes. I was trying to do what was best for her by keeping her where I thought I could move to. Then it turned out that I couldn’t but i wasn’t ready to bring her home. So I go to ride her, after a year of not riding her, and I think the problem was that in that year, she got trained with high level competition in mind, but my trainer failed to remember that I’m not ready for high level competition. So when I rode Sunny that year prior, she was suitable for me. I should have brought her home then, but i truly couldn’t. Now I’m overhorsed and i can’t fix it. The only way I could learn to ride her is if I had a transition horse. If I had a duplicate of what Sunshine was a year ago. She’s too advanced for me and I don’t have the money to buy or lease a horse that could get me ready for her. And that’s why I have to say goodbye to her. And now I’m sad. I just want how things were a year ago to be back so I could undo the mistake I made.